I have missed you forever

Manoj Kamps / Lisenka Heijboer Castañón a.o.

When: 12-18 March

Location: Internationaal Theater Amsterdam, Auditorium

Ticket price: From €19,-

Language: English

Surtitles: Dutch

Unfortunately, our performances of I have missed you forever on 15, 17 and 18 March will have to be cancelled due to illness. We will send ticket holders an email as soon as possible, informing them about the options available to them. 

A procession and a dog

In a theatre, various people come together for a memorial service. As is in keeping with funeral tradition, each individual has a different memory, image or idea of the person being commemorated. After all, the deceased person fulfilled many different roles and carried many unseen experiences with him. Gradually, multiple voices rise in unison as they share their story. Voices who have been rejected, persecuted or forgotten. Yet they are here now, and could not be more alive. They form in a procession that contains a flood of stories, speeches and music: all different in nature and time, but moving as one, united.

A collective of performers, writers and composers from different disciplines and backgrounds worked together intensively on this production. By sharing stories, teaching each other songs and choreographies and exchanging skills in workshops and through online channels, they laid the foundation for this production. The creative team shared their ideas with the performers, who in turn came up with a plethora of visions and creations. This all came together during the intense final rehearsal period in the run-up to the performances in ITA. In the actual theatre, the audience will surround the performers, and will in turn be enveloped by mourning rituals and joy, accompanied by man’s best friend the dog – our guide, protector and human connector.

[Collective Works]

With FAUST [Working title], Kamps and Heijboer Castañón introduced a new work method to Dutch National Opera, which will continue to be explored in the future with other artists as well as with Kamps and Castañón. To this end, DNO has set up [Collective Works], which will provide a space for artists to experiment, both on stage and in the rehearsal studio. The primary aim of this set-up is to research new and collective methods. What does it mean to create an opera as a collective? And what does it mean to do so in an inclusive way? [Collective Works] is an initiative that ensures OFF’s vision takes centre stage; it is all about discovering alternative stories and art forms, about exploring collective creative processes and uncovering the endless possibilities of this art form.


I have missed you forever is a co-production with Asko|Schönberg, under the baton of Manoj Kamps. Asko|Schönberg is a leading ensemble that celebrates innovative music of the 20th and 21st centuries. Its repertoire includes works by well-known composers as well as by a new generation of up-and-coming talents. The ensemble attaches huge importance to and invests in talent development.



12, 13, 15, 17 and 18 March 2022

Team & cast

Concept & creatie

Lisenka Heijboer Castañón, Manoj Kamps, Antonio Cuenca Ruiz, Sarah Sluimer, Pete Harden, Carmen Schabracq, Atelier Clement, Hendrik Walther


Pete Harden, Ethan Braun, Rick van Veldhuizen, Sarah Hennies, Lingbo Ma


Sarah Sluimer, Alma Mathijsen, Romana Vrede, Olivier Willemsen, Esther Mugambi

Musical direction

Manoj Kamps


Lisenka Heijboer Castañón

Costume and masks design

Carmen Schabracq

Set design

Atelier Clement

Lighting design

Hendrik Walther


Antonio Cuenca Ruiz

Music dramaturge

Pete Harden

Text dramaturge

Sarah Sluimer


Chloë Abbott, Marc Alberto, Berima Amo, Jonathan Bonny, Katharine Dain, Reinaldo Donoso, Efe Erdem, Aktas Erdogan, Gil Gomes Leal, Manoj Kamps, Yung-Tuan Ku, Luciana Mancini, Marta Miller, Esther Mugambi, Wilco Oomkes, Stephanie Pan, Edu Rojas, Maciej Straburzynski, Thora Sveinsdóttir, Cody Takács, Patrick Votrian

Co-production with